As the battle gets tougher

Our session cancelled in the middle of the night last week. Sha probably had a few sleepless nights taking care of her little one. Watching him, making sure he’s still breathing properly. Worries and anxieties gripped her tightly. I got a text message and we arranged a last minute session the next day.

She told me about her little boy who was having breathing difficulties, wheezing for air in with a sunken chest in the middle of the night… doctor gave him steroid and he’s barely 2 year old. She, as mother felt so helpless.

Finally, when the chaotic were over, Sha slowly realized discomforts have been brewing in her abdomen and upper chest.  Sha could not move swiftly from standing to a sitting, I saw her middle back muscles bulging out a little.

With normal breathing, her breaths were rapid and short, body was fidgeting. I got her to direct her breathing into Ujjayi; her breathing slowed down in a blink. Verbally, I guided her to explore inhaling into her back, stretching the muscles using the breaths.  She may not have felt anything close to comfortable, but she needs to go through that.

More stretches followed--- Eagle pose and forward side stretch/ twist in seated.  Every move, her face cringed a little. I led her through the inhales and exhales, because I may lose her struggling. By talking to her through, I want to let her know that she’s not all alone.  She cannot depend on me for the pains she’s going through; but I can be the guide that she can always go back to herself for support.

Suggesting her not to worry too much is silly. Of course she’ll be worried for her child when she’s back home; that’s completely normal. Any mother would.

“Oh, at least I felt much better than when I just arrived an hour ago.”  Sha commented while walking down the stairs. Good, that good enough, I am happy for youJ

And that reminded me of something else:

We move from place to place, meeting one person to another doing one thing to the next. Each transition, we want to exit for a better person than when we first entered; leaving the goodness in the room for the next person who enters.